new air.

dear 2009:

i found out that a person who had my heart, was not what he was cracked up to be.

i learned what i can and will not take.

i assimilated the fact that great friends and great food is all you need.

2009 has been crucial for me. so many up and down times. exhausting. the unknown has me anxious for 2010. i have learned so much from 2009 but am so ready to turn the chapter in natalies book of life.

here is to a rejuvenating 2010!

vivenorie

reunion. and closure.

eleven years strong...last night i had a reunion with 3 of my dearest friends. stephanie flew in to LAX from new orleans B took the train to union station from san diego, quee and i are local so we picked those two up. we talked laughed ATE. it was a beautiful time. no matter how far we are apart we always come together like a perfect fit. it has been three years since the four of us have all been together, so much has changed in our individual lives, from girls to women, it is crazy. cant wait to catch up with my gals over these next couple of weeks and have more meals like this...

i am SO very glad i didnt go to the game. spending time with these gals turned out to be much more fulfilling...

vivenorie

misunderstood.

im just a soul whose intentions are good. oh lord please dont let me be misunderstood...

nina simone was fabulous...

vivenorie

new.

let us try this again. new week, new endeavors. im ready. 

a group of my friends and i played a round of cranium on saturday until 5am because no one wanted to give up. a night to remember. and very therapeutic. i definitely needed that... 

life in general becomes so overwhelming and stressful at times that i forget the simple things that make me smile. like my sons laugh. its wonderful...

my blackberry stays glued to my palm. emails. messenger. texts. calls. my sister gets mad at me because when we are together i have my nose buried in my phone while holding a convo with her. i mean really natalie you cant give her all your attention? im sorry nicole...

my mom said that i should stop being so dark. that i have so many things in my life that i should be happy about. i wish she would notice the same things about herself...

we all make mistakes. and we all choose our attitudes...

let the toxins out of your life, whether it be a person, a drug, an addiction. it is not worth it...

im going to strive to be a better person than i was yesterday.

vivenorie

change.

some major changes need to go down in my life. im on the brink of making them. i have to stop over-analyzing every detail in my life. what is going to make natalie happy? decide. and be happy with the decision. i have been holding my breath too long. now it is time to exhale...

i am definitely thankful.

izaiah, my two sisters, my ride or die friend stephanie, short lines at the grocery store, new beginnings, past experiences, beautiful memories, love, familia, churros, my mommas laugh, and beautiful shoes...

i am so thankful for all of my blessings. i constantly am critiquing my life- what i could be doing better, what i hope to have, etc. i know im blessed, but i could definitely be more thankful on an everyday basis. happy thanksgiving everyone! 

vivenorie

no pain. no gain.

whenever i am encountering something painful i.e. getting my eyebrows done, i automatically drift into "non-painful" thoughts. 9 times out of 10 i think about my wedding day to help distract me from the pain...why i associate my wedding day with no pain? i dont know. seeing that it has and probably still will be a painful journey on getting there.

vivenorie

save darfur

end genocide in sudan.
they are in my prayers.

i am a hugster

wowsers how crazy is it that this is my second post a month apart from my 1st?!? the push to do this second post was influenced by a hug. i received a hug from one of my older sisters today and it made me realize how long it actually has been since i have received a good healthy hug from someone (well of course other than little man) i couldnt pin point the last time. she hugged me and it felt like i took a huge deep breath. ahhhhh it felt so good! i will try to hug more often...on another note: i am ready for a healthy income. i am from here on out on a steady grind. i must be hitting the hay soon, have to get zay up early for the garten!

p.s. hug someone tomorrow

vivenorie

first day shakes...

so here i am. i finally have done it. ive been contemplating this blog for quite some time. recent events in my life have practically forced me to finally take the step and start this. so i think ill begin with a short introduction...

i really do not like to use apostrophes or capital letters where they are meant to be. i have a four year old son who is my world, my motivation. i am on a mission to give him the world. im sure he will be mentioned in many posts. i love the smell of plastic. sliding across the floor in my socks is a pleasure of mine. crunching leaves by stomping on them is fabulous. crusty feet make me cringe. shoes and purses are my weakness. i love spell check. my family and ice cream make me smile. 

i think expressing my thoughts through here and posting amazing things i come across will be therapeutic and maybe who ever decides to read this can take something from it as well. we shall see...

vivenorie